Category Archives: motherhood

From The Heart Podcast: Episode 42 – From Resentment to Kindness (with a Fever of 103) in Love, motherhood, Podcast

We are feeling so much better! Still sick but at least we got some sleep last night! And today is podcast day! In this weeks episode of the podcast I cry - a lot. Have I ever recorded a podcast while sleep deprived and not cried? Nope. I’m used to bawling in front of half a million people weekly now. Anywho. In today’s episode I talk about anger. And how, if left unchecked, it can easily turn into resentment... Which separates us from our ability to bring loving kindness into the situation and in the end, causes...

Thinking Of The Unthinkable in General, Love, motherhood

Visions of my baby dying flash in front of my eyes. I wonder if this is normal. I have asked around and I keep asking around and it seems like, yes, everyone feels this way. I’m completely normal. I’m just a regular mom. But sometimes I wonder. This constant worry that something awful is going to happen to my baby… It paralyzes me at times. I feel like I can’t do anything. I can’t think of anything. Anything else but her safety. I obsess over it. This morning I woke up, and as I’ve done...

January 1, 2018 in General, Love, motherhood

I’m writing this from my kitchen table. Dennis and Luna are in her room playing. I can hear her laughing from here. The dishwasher is on and the house is clean after last night's mess thanks to my dear husband and his unbelievable ability to rally and do something completely awesome just when I need it. I’m diffusing wild orange essential oils, the Roomba is going (bless this machine!) and in a second I’m going to open up all the windows and sage every room of the house. It’s a new year! Out with the...

Just A Wave in General, Love, motherhood

Sometimes I can't believe I get to have all of this. There were so many times in my life where I doubted if I was in the right place. And there were dark moments, heavy times where I lost faith in absolutely everything. My best friend died and then my grandmother and then my dog and then my mom tried to commit suicide. All in one year. I remember a moment when I was walking the dogs and felt this overwhelming longing to step out into the ocean and never come back. I was on...