Podcast Transcription: OSHO Dynamic Meditation and Healing by Feeling in Love, Podcast

Episode 62 – OSHO Dynamic Meditation and Healing by Feeling

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In this episode Rachel discusses the need to release stored emotions and the challenges that arise within us (and later reflected in the state of all of humanity) when we don’t have space to open up and release what’s inside.

Beginning with a guided 15-minute meditation to first find a place of silence before diving in, she moves on to sharing an experience she just had in Dynamic Meditation. Answering questions she often gets about this strange and somewhat wild way of meditating, she uses this opportunity to describe the Dynamic Meditation she often practices and also discuss the controversial figure Osho and his teachings.

She ventures into the important topic of letting anger and resentment go, and how already as children we are raised that such emotions are shameful. Everyone needs a safe space free of judgment to own their feelings! She gives helpful tips on how to release suppressed emotion, and why it’s important to do so every day. She concludes by coming back to a core principle in her life – that if we fix what’s on the inside, we can then fix what’s on the outside to create true change in the world.

[001:20] Hi and welcome to another episode of From The Heart: Conversations with Yoga Girl. I sat down here actually a little while ago to begin recording this week’s podcast, and as usual, you know, we normally start this show with a deep breath to center, and then today I just kind of closed my eyes before I pressed record and I took a deep breath on my own, and it turned into another deep breath, and another deep breath, and another deep breath, and now I’ve been here for like 15 minute. (laugh) Just sitting in silence. And … I don’t know if anyone listening, if you’ve ever had that feeling of … a rare feeling, at least it is for me and the way my life is right now is to find myself in one of those totally peaceful, quiet moments, and you don’t want to leave it, you know? When there is just… sort of that like savasana feeling. If you have a really good practice and it’s followed by an amazing savasana, and then your teacher starts guiding you out and it’s time to, you know, kind of come back to the room and bring some movement back into the body, and you’re like, “Noooo I wasn’t ready! I wasn’t ready, I want to stay here forever. I just want to melt into the floor.” You know, that feeling? That’s the feeling I was sitting with just now, I was like, “I just want to stay here in absolute total silence, total peace.”

[002:47] So, I had a nice idea. I think I’m going to start today with a guided meditation, which is a beautiful thing. It’s something that I’ve had in the back of my mind. I had it as sort of an emergency solution if I would ever be completely unable to record this week’s podcast, or any week’s podcast. If I can’t record for any reason, I could always do a guided meditation and it can be something that anyone can come back to at any time, not just to listen to the podcast, but actually to ground back into our own bodies and to be here now. And then I just, I never did! I thought that I would eventually arrive at a place where, oh my god, it’s hard for me to find something new to share (laugh). But I think because the theme of this podcast is From The Heart, and every week I speak from the heart, and every week my heart is in a different place, there’s always something new to share, to dive into, to talk about, to complain about you might even say, or to vent about or to share or to process. So I haven’t had that … I haven’t stumbled across that yet. But since I’m sitting with this total feeling of peace and calm and it’s almost this cool feeling at the bottom of my belly, and I don’t want to leave it.

[004:01] So, wherever you are in this moment right now, see if you can find a place to sit down. Just sitting, it’s a good space to be, to ground ourselves and to make sure that we’re quiet. If you’re unable to find a place to sit, if you’re out for a walk or you’re standing on the subway or whatever is going on, just go ahead and stay standing. But if you can find a quiet place to sit, feel free. Then, sit up nice and tall. For me this really helps. I know a lot of teachers will guide you into this very rigid, you know, super long spine and keep it throughout the entire space or the entire session or however long you’re meditating for. I love to begin with a really long spine, so grounding down through the sit bones and front of the head rising to the sky, but then, you know, as you start getting deeper into the breath, don’t become too hung up on the idea of the super straight spine, but feel free to allow the body to soften and just be the way you are.

[005:02] Allowing the crown of the head to rise toward the sky. Just notice what that does. What that does for your posture, for the rest of your body, for the heart. And as the crown keeps pulling you upward towards the heavens above, see if you can find a little bit of a groundedness, if you can deepen your grounding toward the earth. If your feet are on the ground, plant your feet firmly on the floor. If you’re sitting down and your sit bones are on the ground, really root down through the seat. See if you can feel this very, very intricate connection that you have here between your body and the earth. We have this connection all the time, but we very rarely bring our awareness to this place. Just take this moment to ground, root down and rise up.

[005:54] Eventually, the more time we spend doing that, just focusing on the earth beneath our feet, the earth beneath our body, are you here sitting or standing on the earth? Or is the earth holding you up? Find that merge between your place here and this earth, and the earth’s place here, for you. And then from this place we’ll start to bring a little more awareness into the breath. So just, for now, the way your breath already is, so right here, right now. Without this idea that you have to change anything or shift anything or find this idea of, you know, meditative breath or yogic breath. Just let the breath be what the breath already is. And you can keep the inhales and the exhales flowing through the nose, and just notice, what has life brought you today? Whatever experience and emotion or mental state, whatever you’re sitting with right here, right now is going to reflect perfectly in your breath. The way the natural state of your breath is right now is a really good way for you to check in with what it feels like to be in your body in this moment.

[007:16] So is your breath, is it really really deep? Is it full? Maybe shallow? Is it soft? Is it long? Short? Tense? Relaxed? Are you breathing in and out easier through one nostril than the other? Just take a few moments to just notice what’s moving in and around the breath.

[007:47] The beauty of this exercise is just bringing awareness to the breath. There’s nothing complex, nothing difficult at all. But the moment you bring that attention to the breath and the way the breath already is, little by little, that breath is going to calm down. Little by little the breath is going to slow down, and you’ll find that the more time you spend just bringing awareness to the breath, the deeper the breath will become. So maybe your next inhale you can actually notice how that breath is being pulled all the way down toward the bottom of the belly. You feel the low body expanding, creating plenty of space for that breath, and just let it fill you up. On the exhale notice how that entire process happens in reverse. The belly slightly contracts which allows you to pull the breath all the way back out, through the nose, merging with your surroundings once again.

[008:46] So, sitting with that, perhaps each cycle of breath can grow just a little bit deeper, perhaps you keep it the way it already is. And the beauty of this breath is it’s also, of course, very very connected to the feeling of being in the body. So, noticing now what’s happening with the rest of your systems. Is there anything in your body that you can soften right now? Is there any tension being held anywhere? Can you soften your jaw? Maybe your forehead, your face, your fists? Can you drop your shoulders a little bit further away from the ears? Can you soften the belly, let it go? Noticing now if that straight spine, that long spine, it’s okay to soften, it’s okay to slouch a little bit, it’s fine. Just be here now.

[009:48] Eventually, the deeper this breath becomes, and the more relaxed the body becomes, because of this soft breath, this slow breath, this deep breath, this connected breath, with time and practice it will also translate to the workings of the mind. And here, here is where everything clicks. Here is where the magic starts to happen, where we can arrive of that place of just wanting to stay here in this. We could put any idea of things we have to do or places we should be going, we put all of that aside and we just stay here with the body, the breath, this moment, because we might be able to create just a little bit more space between each one of the thoughts that we have passing through our minds. The more we practice, the more we stay, the more we sit. So, any worries, anything that you’ve been pondering for a long time, all of that is okay. We don’t practice meditation to suddenly change our entire lives, for all of our thoughts and all of our judgments and all of our worries to just fade away, but simply to gain a little bit of perspective. And when we live from the workings of the mind, everything is urgent, everything is dramatic. There’s an urgency to everything, and everything is either good or bad. There’s this feeling that we always have to change or fix or alter something all the time. When we live from this place, from this place of body, from this place of here now, all those problems, they’ll stay the same, they’ll still be there, but the urgency goes away. That urge to constantly react to everything that happens. It all sort of fades a little bit. We have more space to stay with the here and now. Especially when shit hits the fan and when things get really crazy or difficult. We don’t have to dive into that drama of reacting or reflecting or deflecting. We can take a moment just to fill up the body with breath once more. Then as we release it, we have a little bit more space to just be here, before we take action. Perhaps that action can be more centered around the heart, from some place true.

[012:23] So, as you continue to focus on your breath in and on your breath out … continue grounding down through the earth and continue rising up toward the sky, and find yourself dwelling in this beautiful place in between, an earthly being that’s also divine. And ask yourself this … Where is my urgency right now? Where has all of my attention been the past couple of days? What have I been pondering? What am I looking to solve, to fix? Maybe even escape? Is there a way for me to stay in all of that without having to actually change something or come up with any grand solutions, but simply invite another dimension of presence? Maybe it’s as simple as just closing our eyes and focusing on the breath in and the breath out? Maybe that’s the … is there a way for me to be here now with all of this and still feel okay?

[013:44] As you listen to those words, just notice the beating of your own heart. Maybe you can even hear, now, the sound of your own breath, the sound of the heart, the sounds coming from within the body. Making space for that within the silence. Then allowing your next breath in to grow just a little bit deeper … in through the nose, gently, also deepening the breath out. We’ll take a releasing breath, inviting some energy. So, fullest inhale you could possibly find. Inhale filling all the way up to the top of the lungs, and open the mouth and let it go. Let it all go. And then bringing your attention here now, bring your breath back through the nose. Maybe move your shoulders, shimmy around a little bit, rock your head side to side and flutter your eyes open. …

[015:06] Hi! (laugh) This is my favorite, my favorite thing. There are so many things that are my favorite things, for me personally, things I love to do, things I enjoy experiencing, but when I am able to find myself in a place of just silence, and I think maybe because for me it’s a rare thing, I know that it’s easier for some people to arrive to this place of calm. For me it is more challenging, which is also why and how I found myself in this business of yoga. It’s why I became a yoga teacher, it’s why I was drawn to yoga in the first place, because it gave me this absolutely amazing relief from this monkey mind that I have that just never really shuts up. So, when I find myself in this state, because usually for me it’s more of a state, like I’ll get into a really beautiful flow where I’m able to connect to that place of presence, and then I just don’t want to do anything else. (laugh) And that’s when I’ll start teaching twice as much as usual, and I’ll practice twice a day, and I’ll just read different books and listen to different podcasts and have different types of conversations and connect with different people. It’s like that calm inside of me does everything it can to connect with other avenues of calm so that I can invite more of it in my life, so that I can prolong that experience for just as long as possible.

[016:44] Then, of course, because this is life, life is cyclical. Cyclical? (laugh) I can’t remember, I’m not stupid, I’m just Swedish. Life moves in cycles, can I say that? (laugh) So yeah, I think that’s what’s beautiful and also challenging about being a human being is when we find something that we absolutely love or that we crave or that we feel at peace with, we want it to be that way always and forever. And it’s that idea that what is should be, always. It kind of trips us up a lot of the time, it really really really does. If we had an easier time just moving with the flow, and once something comes inviting it in and being grateful for it and allowing it to just stay and enjoying it in the moment, and then when it leaves, let it go, letting it be, releasing it freely, fully, all the way. And then waiting for the next experience to come and staying curious for what’s coming after that. At least that’s how I work. When something goes, specifically this feeling of peace, and think they’re very tied, this clinging sensation, or this clinging that I at least can move into like, “I have something great. I have to keep it!” There’s a tension that suddenly arises from that wanting to keep it forever. And maybe that’s the first step to it actually leaving again. I’m pretty sure that those things are tied. But then it becomes a little bit of a struggle, right? So for me, I mean, I recognize this now, oh my god, so much. These past … I had seven months in Aruba of, you know, it was a lot of up and down and I was working through a lot of stuff but in a really beautifully calm way, because I was home. So I felt super, super grounded, and I think because I felt so grounded I was able to work through some really important emotional stuff.

[018:41] Like, I was looking back at the past half year, for instance, this huge, I had spoken about this on the podcast a lot, this big fear that I had, and I say that I had because that urgency of that fear, it has totally disappeared. I had this big fear that something was going to happen to my baby, this fear of death that I first was very very very scared to even put into words, to even talk about. And then I started sharing it, and when I started sharing it it came with a lot of emotion, and I brought a lot of things up, and a lot of old things and triggered some childhood stuff for me, and old traumas. A lot of things came up. It was sort of like I opened Pandora’s box in terms of this fear, right? Because it was really holding me back. It was inhibiting my ability to just be really present and calm as a mother, because I was so scared all the time something was going to happen, and it was triggering issues in my relationship, all these things came along with this big fear, as most big fears do, for all of us.

[019:39] Then I started unraveling that and it came with this whole kind of box of shit that I had to sit with and deal with. But then through this magic that stepping on to the journey of healing, it came along with a lot of healers, right? So, avenues for me to make my way into that peace. So it came alone with, yeah, a beautiful astrologer, I met Debra who I’ve had on the show who just, you know, I talk to her almost every day who has helped me tremendously, tremendously. It came along with Lara, you know, my teacher friend Lara who has helped me so much with my body. But also other types of healing. People who have come into my life for one day and shown me something. I’ve had a reintroduction to Ram Dass, an old old teacher of mine, one of my first big, big loves when it came to devouring spirituality. Ram Dass is one of the first for me. I mean, I was 18 when I was first introduced to him. And then I kind of faded out of it, and then I received the book, I think, a few years later by a student, but then all of this kind of triggered this awakening of love for Ram Dass. Now, you know, I’m listening to his talks every day.

[020:53] So it came along with all of this magic. And now, I mean, I can really say that urgency of that fear that was really inhibiting my life, it’s gone. Right? It is possible to step onto this journey of healing. And it’s going to be hard, and it’s going to trigger old stuff, but there is a way out, and I can feel like I’ve closed the loop there. I totally, totally genuinely have. I don’t have those horror thoughts anymore. I don’t have those nightmares anymore, and I don’t feel tense around this anymore. Of course there’s that regular old motherly, like … that fear that everybody has, that, okay, you always think about your kids and that little thing in the back of your mind of, you know, what if something would happen? But it’s not paralyzing anymore.

[021:35] And I’m so grateful for that, because it was a really important, really important piece of the puzzle that I had to really connect. And I was thinking about this now because having all of those months in one place, having that time to really ground and just be with my family, with my baby and just be home, it really created this space for me to move through that. I wouldn’t have been able to do that if I was on the road and traveling and going from place to place, or feeling uprooted. I had to really feel my feet on the ground.

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[023:47] So I think when we started traveling I was soooo so so rooted! (laugh) I keep kind of envisioning this little seedling, or like this little plant, or a flower where the roots just kind of pull out of the earth, because that’s how I felt when we started traveling, I really really felt that way. And I was expecting it a little bit too. “Oh as soon as we get going I’ll ground somewhere else and I’ll feel more calm and everything will be easy,” but that feeling of peace, it never came. And there, again, is that clinging to peace. Or that like, “I kind of feel like the peace and the grounding it’s kind of slipping through my fingers!” And I’ve been so attached to it, because it’s given me so much over the past few months. Instead of going with the flow and kind of, “Okay, well that was there and now I’m here, let’s immerse in this different type of energy of traveling and exploring and adventuring, go go go,” I just, I really had a hard time! I just, I couldn’t do it. I was looking back for the peace that I left at home, like, “Ahhh! How can I bring it back?” And attaching to this other energy that just wasn’t present anymore.

[024:57] I think that’s a big piece, I mean, it’s a big piece for me, but I think for a lot of us, this clinging to the way we think things should remain. That things, you know, when we have something good that comes into our lives, it should be that way all the time. But life is this ebb and flow, right? It’s this super high and super low, and then there’s peace and then there’s chaos. Sometimes I’m a little blown away by the fact that I’m going to be 30 this year and still I have so many lessons coming my way every damn day. I mean, it’s a beautiful thing, really, but there’s some lessons I have to learn and re-learn again and again and again.

[025:39] And all of this has sort of culminated for me over this past weekend in a really amazing way! (laugh) In an absolutely, I mean truly, in a truly amazing way. And here’s sort of how things got started for me. I’m going to share a little bit. I got so many questions about the dynamic meditation, and I know I’ve spoken about this before, but just sort of in passing. We do them in our teacher trainings. I haven’t had a single episode dedicated to the dynamic meditation, but I really wanted to talk a little bit more about it, because it has been such a transformational tool for me. You don’t have to do exactly this same thing that I do, but there’s a component to that that, at least in my book, is just the single most important thing for emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

[026:33] So, the dynamic meditation, and I love talking about this now because the dynamic meditation is a meditation created by Osho, or Baghwan. There’s a Netflix documentary, or one of those Netflix series out right now called “Wild Wild Country” that’s centered around Osho. So there’s this kind of wave of attention going towards him and towards the sanyasins and towards this following that he had, and his principles and teachings, and also a lot of the drama and the crazy stuff that came attached to him. Specifically now, because normally, and this is so interesting … When I’m in Europe I can talk about Osho left and right. Everybody, you know, people love him here. Really, he’s super revered. He’s very known. He’s not like an obscure guru or anything like that. There’s tons of Osho centers here, really everywhere, everywhere, and he doesn’t really come attached to any sort of negative connection at all. But you go to the States and you talk about Osho there, there’s this, for anybody who knows him, and before this documentary on Netflix specifically, they would kind of respond as like, “Osho? The crazy cult leader?” And it’s made me a little bit wary to really get into some of these meditations that I practice, because they come along with this whole, you know, a lot of questions and maybe some drama and I haven’t felt like, you know, I’m not the right person to answer that. But I can share my own viewpoints, and specifically what for me has been really valuable when it comes to his teachings.

[028:15] So, if you’ve never heard of him and you have idea who this is or what I’m talking about, you can easily do a little Google or Wikipedia or whatever, but Osho, he’s an Indian mystic or spiritual leader or guru or whatever you want to call it. He has tons and tons of books out that you can read. He was born in the 1930s and was sort of big in India, and then I think in the ‘80s sometime, I don’t know exactly what year, decided to bring his movement to the U.S., started an ashram in Oregon where things went totally ballistic and a little bit crazy, ended up returning to India where he later died. But it was the specific ashram in Oregon that came attached with a lot of crazy stuff. And I’ve heard this through the years so much, anybody who is kind of into his teachings or does these types of groups or meditations, everyone is well aware of this stuff. You know, you have to kind of take the good with the bad a little bit and read through the lines, I think, some, because if you don’t have any attachment to the stories behind it, or Osho the man, and you just read a book, you’re going to have your heart blown wide open. This is, for me, just the most beautiful part. Like, pick up any book, literally go to a book store, go to a new age-y bookstore section, or spiritual section or whatever and find any one of his books and just pick one up that resonates with you and you are going to have a beautiful experience. You’re going to have your heart and your mind blown so open. His teachings are absolutely beautiful.

[029:53] They’re so centered around the individual. What’s very controversial about his teachings is that he’s against, or was against, any type of institution, which is super radical for our society. Any institution, meaning religion as a whole, meaning government, but also meaning the institution of family, which is a very, very hard pill to swallow for most of us. But his idea is that we are born into this world as perfect, beautiful, unique, independent beings, and it’s that we’re kind of enslaved, almost, by society, and we’re shaped by society, and we’re told by society how we’re supposed to be and how we’re supposed to act. Who we’re supposed to be. What we are allowed to feel and when, and that we become sort of drilled into this life that we don’t really, you know, at our core fully resonate with.

[030:42] So this meditation that I practice a lot, it’s called a dynamic meditation, kind of the core idea is that we move through so many different types of emotions in just on single day of being human, right? Just one single day. Think about from the moment you wake up in the morning to the moment you go to bed, the whole range of emotions that you move through. Maybe you wake up and you’re tired and you miss the bus and you’re frustrated, and then you get to work and then you’re stressed, and then you get a phone call from a friend and you’re happy, and you get good news and you’re ecstatic, and you hear someone said something bad about you and then you’re angry … you know, we’re very complex (laugh) as human beings, and the ranges of emotions that we go through in a day, it’s just so vast and so intricate and so deep, and some of these emotions might be kind of lukewarm and medium. We move through them very quickly.

[031:32] But then other things come our way, like we feel angry. Anger is a very high energy emotion, it’s a very intense emotion. And nowhere, I’ve really been thinking about this a lot, especially since having the baby, we’re not really taught any sort of constructive way to express anger when anger arises, right? I mean, if you really think about that, how do we normally express anger? Anger is like this shameful emotion that we’re not supposed to feel because the only way that we know, the only way we’re taught that anger is released is toward another person, right? So normally we release anger and we’re yelling at someone, we become passive aggressive with someone, anger might kind of, you know, it manifests after a fight or after trouble or drama, and we kind of, you know, everything that’s going on inside of us, we want to take that out on the other person. Sometimes it can go really far as to like anger shows up as violence maybe even. Which eventually, of course, becomes all sorts of things and manifests as all sorts of issues that we have in this world. When we don’t have an outlet for the anger, it starts seeping out through us, without maybe even knowing. Do you have anyone in your life who has road rage, for instance? Like a real road rage problem, I mean, that’s so so so so common. You can be in a car and everything is fine, listening to music, and then someone cuts you off and you’re like, “Oh my god, fucking idiot!!” I have a friend who’s like that who is just the calmest person, but then we’re in a car and she just, like, oh my god, she just yells at people and it’s just like she gets transformed into this other person.

[033:12] So this frustration that we feel, and of course that real anger in that moment, you get cut off in traffic, you’re not really that angry at whoever that completely strange person was who just moved their car from their lane into your lane in front of you. Like, that’s not the end of the world. Of course the anger sits there because we’re angry, and it stems from something, but it’s something deeply personal to you. But we don’t have this outlet for it.

[033:37] I’ve been contemplating this so much because when Lea Luna gets angry, and this is so amazing to watch, because she’s just now at the age where she’s starting to get anger, where anger, I can really differentiate her emotions in different ways. Because before she was just a baby, she would cry and it was hard for me to know. Is this cry because is she sad? Is she angry? Is she frustrated? Is she hungry? Did she poop? You know, it’s like everything is just a cry. Now, I’ll take something away from her, or she’s playing with something she’s not allowed to play with, I don’t know, she grabbed a glass from the table the other day, she wants to play with a glass, of course you can’t play with a glass because it could break and whatever. So I took the glass away and I try to calmly say, you know, “We can’t play with a glass. The glass can break and if it breaks we could hurt ourselves.” And her face, you know, here entire face, she looks at me with this fire, like fire in her eyes because she wants to play with the glass. Her face becomes red and she scrunches up her face and then she stomps her little feet in the ground (laugh) it’s the cutest thing. She stomps her feet in the ground and she makes fist with her hands and then she yells, and she throws a little mini tantrum. Her whole body is involved. She stomps her feet, makes fists, she starts jumping up and down, and she screams. She’s like, “Ahhhhh!!!” And there’s this total, absolute release of that anger. Anger comes and then in a second it’s gone. Like, it’s gone immediately. It doesn’t last. It’s not like two hours later she comes back my way and she’s like, “Remember that glass that you took from me two hours ago? I’m really fucking pissed about that! Let’s fight about it!” Like, no, she’s a baby. This is all she knows. It’s totally a primal, human thing. Anger comes and she has a really constructive way to release it, and then it’s gone. And when it’s gone it doesn’t come back, right? I mean, it comes back but it’s in a new situation where there’s new emotion arising. But it doesn’t linger in her body and sit there and then becomes transmuted into something else.

[035:36] And for adults, you know, I don’t know when exactly the line is in terms of growing up, but I’m going to experience it myself I’m sure, but there comes that moment in life where it’s like, “Okay, well we’re supposed to grow up now.” Kids throw tantrums, that’s what children do. Kids cry, kids scream, it’s very accepted that that’s just what it is. I mean, and then we can talk about the level of acceptance in different social situations and all of that, but there is that moment in life when we’re taught like, “Okay, don’t cry.” Right? Don’t cry, don’t scream, don’t throw a tantrum, behave. This is a key word in raising a child, I feel. Behave, we have to behave. We have to adapt to these social structures of what’s appropriate and what isn’t appropriate in life.

[036:29] Here is, and Osho speaks about this so much and so beautifully, here is where things get really tricky because just because we grow up and we’re supposed to fit into the structure of society which means, yeah, maybe it’s not socially acceptable to throw a massive tantrum, like, at a gas station or in the middle of the street or at a business meeting, or whatever, you know, we just don’t do that. People would think that we’re absolutely insane if we started screaming over something little just in the middle of a social situation. So we teach kids, or society kids, to start swallowing these emotions instead. Like, “Suck it up. Stop crying, stop crying.” Specifically stop crying, that was something that I personally heard from a really young age from my dad, actually, growing up. And I know now, I mean, now I’m an adult, we’ve talked about this so many times because it was something that really shaped me in a really weird way. Specifically tears, for him. Because he grew up in a family raised in a way where it was totally shameful to cry. You weren’t allowed to cry when you were a boy because then you weren’t a man, it’s not a manly thing to cry. But crying specifically was a very shameful thing, and he just wasn’t raised it a way where he had space to deal with his emotions. So, when he had kids, when he had me, whenever I would cry he would immediately tell me, “Stop crying, stop crying, stop crying, stop crying.” And I remember once, I was like eight or nine and something happened and I was crying and I said, “I don’t want to stop crying! I want to cry!” Because I was sad, right? I wanted to cry. And he told me, “Stop crying. You only cry if you did something wrong. Only people who have done something wrong cry. So, did you do something wrong now? Is this your fault?” It was something like that. And then I kind of had to stop crying. I was like, “What?” And I internalized it instead.

[038:16] So for a long time, anytime I had the urge to cry I was like [gasp] and I would kind of suck it up and like, okay, wait, it’s wrong to cry, it’s shameful to cry, you only cry if you’ve done something wrong, and I stopped crying. So I didn’t cry for years. Like really, I had a big issue. And this issue of not feeling that I had space to release my emotion, like I had a safe space to just feel sad or whatever, it became a huge issue for me, and I started holding everything inside instead. And of course this is a challenging thing because now I’m raising a baby of my own, I want her to act all of these emotions out. So how can we do that in a healthy way and give her permission to do that in a healthy way for her whole life? For as long as she lives? And how can we as adults find constructive ways to release emotion without hurting anybody else? This, for me, it’s the core of everything I teach as a yoga teacher. It’s definitely a core of all of our teacher trainings, because I believe that this is something that’s going to change the world. I believe it’s something that truly, truly, truly can change how we walk through life.

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[040:55] Osho dynamic meditation is a really good tool. There’s so many ways you can do this, oh my god, there’s so many ways to release emotion, so many ways. But the dynamic meditation is a structured way that this can be done. And for me it’s been super helpful. So I want to share a little bit about how it works and what it is. And if you’re interested and you feel like, “Oh my god, this is something that really resonates with me, it sounds interesting,” yeah, then go try it! If you think it sounds totally insane and out of this world crazy, because yes, in a way it absolutely is, you know, try something else. Really, really.

[041:30] So, the dynamic meditation, it’s a one hour meditation and it’s practiced best in a group, and best in a regulated setting. It’s really hard to do on your own because we need the energy of other people, at least in the beginning. When you’ve practiced it for a long time and you’re kind of a more seasoned practitioner you can do it on your own. I’ve done it on my own a few times. But it’s easier to keep the energy going if you’re in a group. So, there’s Osho centers all over the world. We do them at the studio in Aruba. Here in Stockholm there’s a bunch of places you can do them as well. Some yoga studios lead them, some meditation places lead them, you just have to kind of google your way in and find good spots.

[042:15] The meditation, it’s a one hour meditation and it’s with music, and it’s in five different stages. The stages are characterized by different tones of music, or different types of music. So you know when one stage begins and the other one ends. The first stage of the meditation is chaotic breathing. So, since many of us listening here are yogis and into yoga, it’s fairly similar, this breath work, this pranayama, it’s fairly similar to the kapalabhati breath, breath of fire. I’m sure you know breath of fire, it’s this forceful exhale through the nose. Except the difference here with a dynamic meditation is that it’s completely chaotic and unstructured. So, what Osho teaches is that anytime we get into this structure and this pattern, that’s when the mind starts creeping back in, right? So we want to keep everything slightly disorganized, slightly chaotic so that we can stay in the movement of the moment and with the energy of the moment the whole time.

[043:15] So, you stand up. Sometimes these meditations happen and everyone is blindfolded, and that’s just to make sure that you stay with all of your attention and all of your energy inward, toward you, right? So that you’re not looking around the room or looking at someone else, so that you’re not getting distracted, basically. I always lead them with blindfolds because it’s so much easier to stay focused. So, you don’t focus on the inhale at all, it’s just a forceful exhale out through the nose, and you continue exhaling out through the nose. So it will sound a little something like this. [Chaotic breathing sounds] (laugh)

[043:49] But you’re standing up and you kind of involve your entire body. So you can envision a bellow, like you’re blowing air onto a fire, it’s like you use your entire body to mimic this motion and to mimic this energy, to just release breath out through the nose chaotically and without structure. This first part of the meditation lasts for ten minutes, so it’s a fairly long time. And what it does is it energizes the body. It bring all the energy into your system and it oxygenates your entire being. Like, all the tissue, all the cells, all the muscles, every part of your physical and energetic being is going to be completely filled up with energy after this. It’s like you’re filing yourself up preparing for the second phase.

[044:30] And then the music shifts after ten minutes, and the second phase is catharsis. So, it’s the acting out phase, the releasing of emotion phase. My favorite phase. It just means that because you’ve built all of this energy up in your body through this breath work, whatever is there, you act it out. Whatever is there, you act it out. It’s that simple. And you act it out all the way, literally all in, all the way, completely, with your entire being, without thinking about, you know, if anyone is watching, if this is polite, if it’s normal, if you’re being too loud or too quiet or, you know, whatever, just you acting out and sort of channeling that inner one year old. Channeling the inner one year old throwing a tantrum. You know, Lea Luna is not thinking, like, “Who is looking at me when I’m yelling me right now? Is this appropriate or not? Are they going to think lesser of me if I do this?” No! She just acts out the emotion, and then it’s done.

[045:30] So, what this translates to, because most of the emotions that we walk around with that we carry throughout a day. It involves a lot of anger. A lot, a lot a lot of anger, because we don’t have this constructive way to release anger in our day to day life. It’s really hard to find. So, yes, there’s a lot of yelling involved in this part of the meditation. There’s a lot of screaming, a lot of acting out. Usually we’ll bring in like bolsters and pillows and stuff so you can take a bolster and bang it on the floor or bang it on the wall, or your punch your fists into the pillow and, you know, there’s screaming, like all the way, all out, all the way.

[046:02] If you feel sad, you cry. That’s it. Maybe you want to roll up into a ball and just cry for ten minutes. If you want to scream for ten minutes you do that. Maybe you feel super joyful, then you dance, you sing, you laugh, you do whatever, you spin, you skip, you jump up and down, you do whatever comes. Whatever is there you act it out. And the key to this phase is, because acting emotion out, it’s super draining, like it’s really, it takes a lot of energy out of you. So if you arrive at that phase and you don’t feel anything, because sometimes we’re blocked, right? Sometimes we arrive at that place and it’s like, “I don’t know … what the hell am I doing here? This is insane. There’s people around me …” Because it’s kind of like a zoo, right? There’s people around you acting out all sorts of different emotions. From the outside if someone would just kind of step into this room, yeah, it would sort of look like a mental institution, maybe. But, in fact, it’s the healthiest fucking thing in the world. So, if you don’t feel anything or you have a hard time connecting, because some of us, I mean, if we’ve suppressed these emotions for an entire lifetime, like, I had a really hard time accessing anger, for instance, when I started doing this type of work. Then we can fake it, right? So you can stomp your feet, play the Lea Luna, jump up and down, punch the pillow, scream, you know, even though maybe you don’t feel it all the way, and what’s beautiful there is you start faking an emotion, you start acting it out, and all of the sudden there’s a wave of that, and you don’t even know where it came from. It just hits you and then you’re in it and you’re feeling it and you’re releasing, and it’s so so so soooo amazing. It’s so amazing. And that lasts for ten minutes.

[047:38] And then the next phase, it’s called the who phase, and it’s jumping up and down on the flat of your feet kind of landing on your heels with your hands stretched up in the air and when you land on your feet you say, “Who.” Yeah, it’s a Sufi mantra, you say, “Who.” So it’s channeling your root chakra, you’re grounding into the earth. And this is a long phase, it lasts for 15 minutes. People tell me this all the time when I introduce this to someone new, like, maybe the hardest thing you’ve ever done. You can be a super athlete, you can be an Ironman, ultraman, whatever, you are going to have a really hard time with this phase, because it is about exhausting the body. Another one of Osho’s key principles is that the Western mind is so totally crazy because of all of this suppressed emotion, right? And, you know, we’re not made for meditation, just telling a Western person, “Sit down, close your eyes, find sukasana, and meditate. Shut your mind off.” It doesn’t work, because we have too much crazy on the inside, so we have to let the crazy out. We let the crazy out enough, we fully exhaust ourselves, we really really let the body completely take over, then we have space for silence. Then silence can arise.

[048:54] So after this phase, I mean, this third phase, all of the sudden Osho yells, “Stop!” And then wherever you are, whatever shape you’re in, you know, your hands are up in the air, you’re sweating, you just stop as you are and you hold your physical position exactly the way it is, and stillness is there. And this phase is all about kind of internalizing this energy so you don’t leak any energy. You’re not panting, if there’s a scratch you let it be there, sweat is running down your face, you let it be there. Just let everything stay the way it is and internalize all this energy, this energy that you’ve created, this amazing, amazing, I mean, it’s super powerful. Then it’s just silence. And for me personally, some of my most immense, like true true true emotions, downloads where I felt so anchored in the moment, where I really felt like, okay, my mind is just, it’s quiet, it’s always in the silent phase in a dynamic meditation, I mean, it’s always, always. I mean, yeah, it’s a lot of work to get there, but once you start practicing this, it all makes sense. We need that release for this silence to arrive.

[050:01] Then after, it’s fifteen minutes of silence, and then at the end of that there’s really beautiful music and there’s rejoicing, and you just dance. And it’s kind of intuitive dance, movement, expressing yourself, and you celebrate the day. And that’s the meditation, right? (laugh)

[050:20] I don’t know, for me, because I’ve done so much of this this is totally normal. I don’t see anything strange about this at all, and I do introduce a lot of new people to it, and there’s always that first time when people are like, you know, looking at me like, “Wait, what are we doing?” And afterwards, here’s where kind of the magic happens… After this, and it’s just one hour of the day, usually it’s practiced really early in the morning, for me, I mean for me, it can change my whole week. It can change the whole month. It changes absolutely everything, because all the things that I’ve been walking around with, carrying, heavy thoughts, weights, worries about stuff, and also most of the time frustration or anger over stuff, like the dynamic is where I let all of that out. Anything that I’ve had on my mind, like, “Oh my god, I really have to have a conversation with that person because that shit is not working,” or, you know, I have like a little list of things that I feel like I need to fix or address, or I’m annoyed with people because they bothered me, after dynamic I’ve forgotten all of it. It’s all, I mean, it’s still there because it’s a situation that’s playing out, but it’s not relevant anymore. I don’t have to do anything. I don’t have to address anything, I don’t have to be angry with anyone, I don’t have to have a talk, those feelings were my feelings, so this idea that I have to have a talk with that person so that I can resolve this anger, so that I can resolve this annoyance that I have with them, it’s my annoyance, it’s my anger. I can resolve it with myself. I don’t need anybody else on the other end for that.

[051:53] But the less space we have to release and to express this sort of stuff, the more the mind takes over. And the mind will tell us, like, “Oh my god, allllll these other people are fucked up. That person did that to me. I can’t believe that person said this. I can’t believe that person did that. I am better than everyone, I have to do this and this and that, I have to tell them what is what,” you know, the more that we live from the mind, the more the mind will tell us that oh my god, everything is a problem to be solved, and I’m the one to solve it. And none of that is really true.

[052:28] So, for this weekend, after having these past couple of weeks they have been really challenging for me, and I haven’t done a single dynamic, and we’ve been on the road, so it’s been a different space and hotels, and I had this feeling of not being grounded, you know, I’ve shared all of this on previous podcasts. And then it was Friday, this is so interesting, because it’s kind of culminated now, and I’ve had some stuff going on with Dennis, which is not normal for us, like real stuff, like real stuff and issues, and that’s not normal for us. Friday I met a friend, a really good friend, who is going through a breakup, and he’s having a really hard time and then we were going out, we were having a beer, and I was like, “You know what? You need a dynamic meditation.” And he’s like, “What?” And I’m like, “Yeah, I can sense it, you need a dynamic meditation. Do you want to go?” I didn’t explain him anything. “It’s just a meditation that allows you to release emotion,” because he was feeling really angry but wasn’t able to articulate it. And he’s like, “Fuck yes, I’m in. I don’t know what it is, but I’m in. Let’s go.” And then, you know, the whole weekend I was like, “I can’t believe I committed to doing a dynamic again,” because there’s something about the mind in the beginning that the mind doesn’t want you to do a dynamic meditation. For the mind it’s like the worst thing. It’s so hard! Because it’s a really hard meditation, it’s really heavy, it’s really intense, it’s overwhelming. And all weekend I was like, “Ugh, I have to do this meditation! I can’t believe I put myself in these situations!” Like I committed to doing it with this friend and all of this. So I had it in the back of my head like, “Ugh, I don’t want to go,” because I always feel that way before I go. “I don’t want to go!” Always, the same thing, every time.

[054:01] Then the day after that I had committed to this, Saturday morning, Dennis and I had a huge fight, our biggest fight in a very long time. Big fight, and the baby was present when we fought, which has never happened before, so I was just completely, oh my god, completely broken up and distraught about a lot of things. Immediately following that I started throwing up and threw up for 36 hours. (laugh) Isn’t that interesting how that works? Yeah, I fully believe I think I had food poisoning because no one else got sick at all, but it was very very very triggered by this heavy emotional stuff. This, for me, fighting in front of the baby, it’s tied to a lot of, ugh, things I said I would never in a million years do as a parent. I grew up with two parents that hated each other and fought all the time, I’m never going to do that, and then here we go, life happens, me and Dennis had a fight, the baby was there. It was a big, big thing for me. And yeah, I had a really physical reaction to that, threw up for 36 hours, and then suddenly it’s Tuesday morning and I wake up and I have to set my alarm to 5:30 because there’s a meditation that I have to do, and I get on the bike to bike to dynamic and on the bicycle I can kind of feel, it’s my little heart, my poor little heart in my chest, it’s fluttering and my whole body goes, “Oh my god, it’s coming. Oh my god, it’s coming, it’s coming.” Sort of the feeling like if you had a hard day and you’re on your way to yoga class, that feeling like you just want to roll your mat out, you just want to drop into child’s pose, it’s like you crave it so much. That feeling, but like times 1,000. And I realized, like, on the bike, I’m like, “Goddamnit! My body is the smartest, smartest thing in the whole world. I need this meditation so bad, so bad.”

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[057:34] The only way for me to really commit and make sure that I go is by attaching it to another person. I don’t really care if my friend goes, I mean, it’s probably a great thing for him, but it has nothing to do with him, you know? It’s just I really needed that so that I would get my ass there. That’s just what it is. And we go in and there’s like ten people in the room, it’s kind of a small group, and we start and it’s just, it’s one of those things, it just totally takes me over, and we get into the emotional phase and I thought I had a lot of anger and frustration because I felt really frustrated, and I was just super sad. That was it. I grab my pillow, I just curled up in a ball in the corner of the room and I just balled my eyes out. And in a way that, like, normally it takes, you know, I had one fight with Dennis. Normally for me to really have a release like that it takes a lot. A lot a lot a lot a lot. And now, what’s amazing about this meditation, because it’s structured in this way, it’s like, “Here you go, here’s a structured way for you to have permission to act out whatever it is you’re holding on to. Whatever it is. You have permission to just be completely free, rebel, free spirit, in this moment be who you are, act it out.” And it’s allowed. It’s not only allowed, it’s welcomed. And everybody else in that room, including that entire studio, the space that’s hosting this, it’s like it’s so appreciated. Everyone who comes there, it’s appreciated that you’re there and that you’re doing this sort of healthy, emotional work. So that you leave your crazy in your room, and then you go out, and then maybe you get in the car and you don’t yell at strangers for changing lanes in traffic, right? Or you don’t deflect it onto your partner and stay annoyed with everything they do. You don’t let it ruin your relationships or your career or your state of mind or your well-being. It’s a really healthy thing.

[059:24] And for me I just kind of bawled into this pillow, and I was so broken up about this fight that I we had, and I couldn’t believe that it happened in front of the baby, all of this stuff. And then, you know, the meditation goes on, and then when this phase is over, it’s like, it’s done. The emotion is done, it’s over, it’s out there. It’s over! It’s left my body, I’m done. And when I’m out of the meditation, and of course my friend had this totally, like, he gave me a look just when we started like, “What did you just bring me to?” And afterwards was totally loved it. Absolutely. He was like, “it looks really crazy from the outside, it makes so much sense.” And when I was biking back, all of this stuff that I was pondering, this not knowing, not feeling grounded, everything kind of … I don’t have to ponder it anymore. Like I feel so clear, I’m not beating myself up about this fight. I’m a human being, Dennis is a human being, we’re married, it’s inevitable. We are going to fight. It’s a family situation. In a perfect world that stuff wouldn’t happen. But I’m not perfect, he’s not perfect, we don’t live in a perfect world, and this is life, right?

[060:33] So all is just well. And not through this ginormous epiphany of something totally divine or therapeutic that had to come my way, and all of this soul searching, you know, it was just a need to release. That’s it. And that, for me, it makes it all so worthwhile, so completely worthwhile. And this is why I teach this meditation in teacher training because it takes us to a place of absolute truth. It just cuts through the chase. You cut through the bull shit, cut through the fears, cut through whatever is stagnant and stuck within us, and we get to the core of the problem, right? And then there’s clarity. And then we take action or we walk away and we change something or we just accept it and we move on, and such is live.

[061:16] I’ve been doing this for ten, no twelve years. This is my twelfth year of practicing this meditation, and for me it’s the single one tool that works every time, all the time. And the more, of course, you practice it, the more it works. The more you practice it the more it becomes part of your day to day life, to find ways to release. We had a business meeting a couple of days ago, and one of the girls that works on our team, she had a really hard day, we sat down, and normally we do a little round the table like, “How is everybody doing?” It was a meeting with our design firm. And she just stood up, she was like, “Before we start, can I just, can I just …” And she said nothing more. “can I just,” and she grabbed the pillow and she was like [yells]. And she just starts banging the shit out of this pillow on the floor. And we’re all sitting there on the table just kind of, I teared up a little bit, I’m like, “I fucking love all of this so much.” And then she’s done, she sits down, she’s like, “Thank you guys for holding space. Okay. Yeah, actually, I feel pretty good right now. How are you guys?” You know? What if there was space for us to just be the crazy, to act the crazy out? And thinking that not everybody has this is just a total, ginormous fucking lie. Everybody feels this shit. Everybody feels the same way, we all feel frustrated, we all feel angry, we all feel sad, inadequate, all of this stuff. It’s totally normal. What isn’t normal by the standards of society is to act it out the way a child would. And I’m really working hard for it to become more accessible, or at least for us to invite these tools into our life so we can, in a structured way, make it accessible for everyone.

[062:55] So for me and my team what it looks like is making space for all of that. It means practicing this specific meditation with my team. We do it all the time at the studio because it works. Or, you know, giving everyone five minutes to like, hey, let’s fucking punch a pillow if you’re angry, dance a little bit if you’re happy, turn on a good song and jump around. It’s not just negative emotions, although of course the negative emotions stuck in the body is what leaves the biggest residue, because it trips us up a lot. But also being really really really happy, do you have a happy … I don’t want to use the word “cock block” (laugh) but it’s the one word that comes to mind. Like, a person in your life that just kind of wants you to tone it down a little bit if you’re too happy? That’s also another thing. People are wary of anyone who is too joyful. If you’re too ecstatic it’s like, “Oh my god, that person, what’s wrong with them? Don’t they know that there’s bad things happening in the world and there’s famine and people starving? She should just tone it down a little bit.” This is a huge problem! Like, of course there’s heavy horrible shit that happens in the world. Absolutely. A lot of it, I really believe, stems from this inability to release emotion. Because growing up, we’re walking through life holding on and harboring anger and resentment, what type of person do you become after 50 years? 50 years of swallowing your anger? Chances are that person is not going to be super chill. Chances are that person is going to be maybe the type of person that would, like, get into politics and start a war. (laugh) I don’t know, that’s just how I am kind of simplifying this a lot, of course.

[064:35] But of course there’s horrible things happening in the world. We have to give ourselves permission to be joyful when we’re joyful. We have to give ourselves permission to be happy when happiness is there. To fully enjoy and immerse ourselves in the highs when the highs come. Because inevitably, such is life, it’s cyclical. There’s going to be a low, right? And when the low comes, can we allow ourselves to also be in the low and feel the low, and then act it out and not hold onto it, and then when we’re back in a high, we can fully live in that place.

[065:13] To me this is just … this is a serious, real game changer. And, of course, and I haven’t addressed this at all now, and I wanted to but this, of course as usual, this podcast turned into what was … what is here right now. But I shared a little bit of this through social media this weekend, or this week, I mean in the middle of the week. Because sometimes I got a comment that said, “Hey Yoga Girl, can you just inspire more and complain less?” And that comment sort of sent me over the edge, because it’s exactly the opposite of everything I’m wanting to do. I would rather complain more and inspire less, if that’s the case. I don’t want to be a person that is “inspiring,” that has to inspire, and I have to decide in advance what I share and what’s inspiring and what isn’t. I just want to share what I feel in the moment that I feel it. And if you don’t resonate with that, yeah, it’s going to come off as sounding like I’m complaining a lot, or like I’m ungrateful. But if you resonate it’s going to come off as, “Here’s someone who’s just speaking the truth. Here’s someone who’s just sharing something that’s happening, and maybe I resonate with that because maybe I feel the same, and maybe I can also give myself permission to share when stuff isn’t going my way, or when stuff is hard.” And I would love to see more of that. I would love to see more of that. Absolutely, I think it would be soooo so so so so amazing for there to be that truthful space and that safe space for us also in the online world to share when we’ve had a shitty day without getting feedback like, “Oh my god, you’re so ungrateful, suck it up, you live in a first world country, you have a roof over your head, life is great, why are you complaining?” Like, hey, I had a rough day. Share it, feel the emotions that comes attached to it, act that emotion out. Maybe in your own home you’d have to find a dynamic meditation for that. Go into your bedroom, close the door, turn your phone off, and beat the shit out of a pillow. I mean, have you ever tried that? Have you ever tried that? If you live by a forest or a mountain range or an ocean or whatever, go to the ocean and scream. Have you ever done that? Go up a mountain top and scream, go hiking, go into the forest and scream, yell. Oh, I get goose bumps just sharing that because it’s so fucking liberating, and we have such few chances to do that. And it sort of, it drives me a little crazy. And of course this is again my crazy, my stuff, and I am owning all of my emotions as mine. And it drives me crazy seeing people trying to force us to conform into this other idea of like you have to fit into this box, be this person, suck it up, soldier on, smile, take a yoga photo, be inspirational. Like, Fuck. That. Noise. I’m just, I’m not having it.

[068:05] (laugh) I love that this week’s podcast started off with a guided meditation and it’s ending with “Fuck that noise,” but I really really really believe that this is something that’s going to change the world because it will change our internal state, and the only way to change the world on a large scale, on a global scale, in a real way is to change what’s on the inside. We can’t expect to heal the world, to end wars and to fix world hunger and end injustice and racism and abuse and all of this shit that’s playing out in our world every single day, we can’t expect to heal and fix that if we’re working from a broken place. I mean, it’s just as simple as that. We have to fix what’s within so we can fix what’s without. And it begins with a really healthy way to process emotion, it really does. And it begins with speaking the truth. It begins with allowing yourself to be what you are, who you are, how you are. And of course always processing that emotion in a healthy way, right? So not toward other people, not yelling at other people, and of course all of this, you know, aggressive comments we see on social media, that’s another version of road rage. It’s just anger and frustration that’s kind of seeping out of people day-to-day. And it sucks to walk around with that! Like, it really really really does. I think anyone who, you know, if you spend a lot of time on the internet commenting angry things in social media feeds, like, go do a dynamic meditation, really. Do a dynamic meditation and then see if you feel that same urge to live life that way on the internet. I really think it would profoundly change something.

[069:48] So, I think these two puzzle pieces, and this is part of … I’ve been hinting at something big coming soon, and now it’s like the soon is getting sooner and sooner and closer and closer, but this is … my core value, really, my core value is we have to fix what’s on the inside to fix what’s on the outside, and these two things go hand in hand because when we feel whole within and we have that healthy way to process emotion and our relationships start working and we start taking care of our bodies, we can live in this space and feel at home in the body. Because it’s really hard to feel at home in the body if the body is filled with anger. That’s just a fact. When we start to feel at home in our own bodies and we’re whole, all of the sudden there’s going to be an automatic longing to do good things for the rest of the world. By giving back the loving-kindness, the wanting to be of service, it’s going to be so natural, and it’s going to come from a place of absolute, total, bad ass action. Because when we’re whole we have all the tools we need. Even if, you know, we don’t have to have all of the money or all of the time. We’re going to have the internal tools to make a change, on a local level, like where you live, on a global scale, you know, small, large, every single thing counts. How we live our lives every single day absolutely counts.

[071:08] And here it all begins, right now. So … the same way we kind of moved through that meditation in the beginning, like what urgency do you have right now? What urgency are you sitting with? Is it anger? And I’m just asking, is it anger? For a lot of us it is. It could be something very different. It could be sadness. Maybe you’re overworked, you know? Maybe you’re just depleted. It could be frustration, it could be fear. Fear was a huge thing for me and the beginning of this year. Huge huge huge huge thing. What is it? Find that urgency, because whatever urgency that you’re sitting with, that you feel like you have to fix with your head, with this and that and talking to that person, and should not, would not, should haves, could haves, all of that stuff, is there a way for you to release that emotion tied to that urgency in a super healthy, right now? Not next Tuesday or whenever, like, you can go online, you can see if you can find a dynamic meditation if you want to go to one. Just, you know, a heads up, it is totally crazy. But it’s the sanest thing in the world. If there’s not one available close to you, or you feel like that’s too big of a thing or whatever, is there a healthy way for you to just, right now, when this podcast is over, find a safe space and feel, right? Scream, cry, yell. You can start any shape or form, but usually it involves the body, because this stuff gets stuck in the body. So it can’t just be, it should not be just you standing there or sitting there quietly acting something out. Involve your entire body in whatever emotion. Jump up and down, stomp your feet, punch your pillow, run, dance, kick something (laugh). Involve your body and give yourself, you can even put a timer, I like to do that if I don’t have time to do a whole dynamic meditation, I’ll just burn. We call it just “The Burn,” we call it just “burning the emotion.” Put your timer on ten minutes and just go to your bed. The bed is a really good and safe space to do that, because you don’t want to injure yourself or anybody else. Just go to your bed, set a timer for ten minutes and go absolutely bananas. Channel your inner one year old. Throw a tantrum, act it out, and maybe you’ll start acting one emotion out, but it leads to something else, and you realize you think you’re angry but you’re actually sad. That was what it was for me this week. I thought I was angry, I was super sad. And then when that timer goes off, you know, it’s over. You stop. (laugh) Get on with your life and continue with your day. See if it changes something in your life, because for me it’s been transformational, and I’m willing to bet it will be for you as well.

[073:47] If you (laugh) take any of this to heart, I would love to hear from you, how you’re feeling, really really. If, today, if you’re acting anything out, if you find this meditation it works for you, if you agree, if you don’t agree, I would love to hear from you how this works. How do you release emotion? And let’s keep this conversation going, because it’s a really important one.

[074:13] Wherever you are, whatever you’re feeling right now, everything is valid. You have 100%, all the right to feel the way you feel right now at this moment in time. So, go nuts. And, yeah, let’s see where we are with all of this next week! (laugh) Until then, holding space for you to just feel all of it. I’ll see you next week

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