This was my first week of really understanding that I’m pregnant. Or, actually, I’m not sure if I even really understand it right now… It’s so huge!
The funny thing is, I got intense pregnancy symptoms right away. I’ve never had bad period symptoms, my period is usually over in 2-3 days, I don’t get bad cramps and generally feel comfortable all the way through. So reading online and in my new pregnancy apps (I downloaded like five of them!) that early pregnancy symptoms feel very close to period symptoms, and that’s why many people mistake pregnancy symptoms for their period coming around the 4th week, didn’t make much sense to me.
But suddenly I started feeling all sorts of cramps – pretty bad ones! They’d come and go all throughout the day and vary in intensity. Also, my boobs were killing me. I’d never experienced actual boob pain before, not even related to my period, so this was all new. But all in all feeling new things was exciting! For every new sensation that came up I’d get excited because it all affirmed what I knew was true but that I still couldn’t quite believe: there is life growing inside me! So wild.
I started taking Folic Acid the moment I found out we were pregnant, and also changed something pretty radical: I completely stopped using my asthma medicine. I’ve had chronic asthma since I was 4, and even though my asthma generally isn’t bad I always carry my inhaler with me. Finding out I was pregnant I got this huge urge to stay pure, free of chemicals, free of everything that had the slightest chance of harming the baby, and whatever was in my inhaler didn’t feel safe (even though all the websites I checked said it was).
I’d gone long stretches of time without using my inhaler before (usually I only get asthma when I’m very stressed – its so connected to my emotional wellbeing) but I’d never decided to completely stop using it. A lot of changes in a short time! I wasn’t sure how it would go but figured time would tell. For now, I tried to focus on grasping this big life change. Our little family is growing! I still can’t believe it.