Category Archives: General

Thinking Of The Unthinkable in General, Love, motherhood

Visions of my baby dying flash in front of my eyes. I wonder if this is normal. I have asked around and I keep asking around and it seems like, yes, everyone feels this way. I’m completely normal. I’m just a regular mom. But sometimes I wonder. This constant worry that something awful is going to happen to my baby… It paralyzes me at times. I feel like I can’t do anything. I can’t think of anything. Anything else but her safety. I obsess over it. This morning I woke up, and as I’ve done...

January 1, 2018 in General, Love, motherhood

I’m writing this from my kitchen table. Dennis and Luna are in her room playing. I can hear her laughing from here. The dishwasher is on and the house is clean after last night's mess thanks to my dear husband and his unbelievable ability to rally and do something completely awesome just when I need it. I’m diffusing wild orange essential oils, the Roomba is going (bless this machine!) and in a second I’m going to open up all the windows and sage every room of the house. It’s a new year! Out with the...

Remember: life takes you where you’re supposed to be in General, Love, Yoga

Every time I thought I was being rejected from something good I was actually being redirected to something better... Here is a truth: you don’t have all the answers. What looks like a loss right now might just be a magnificent gain! I think of the times I thought that things didn’t go my way; that I missed out, lost an opportunity or failed. 9 times out of 10 I am grateful things happened the way they did. When I almost lost my entire business to a lying ex-partner it broke my heart - but...

#MeToo – The Yoga Stories in General, Yoga

I want to begin by extending my immense gratitude to every single person that has submitted a story over the past week. You are so brave. I believe you. And none of this was your fault. Thank you all for speaking up! I hope that shedding light on this issue will attribute to some sort of change. This post is not about my own #MeToo stories (I recorded a podcast episode available here if you want to listen), but about the many women (and some men) that have been courageous enough to speak up. We...

Our Song in General, Love

Dennis, you surprise me all the time. It's my birthday today and it's full moon and it's a harvest moon. Harvest Moon by Neil Young was our wedding song. I remember when I told the DJ before the wedding which song we would be dancing to and I was worried; would it be awkward? Having 200+ people staring at you while dancing as newlyweds wasn't something I could envision without feeling nervous so I asked him; "at the end, could you transition to something super fun, maybe soca? So our friends can crash the dance...

Just A Wave in General, Love, motherhood

Sometimes I can't believe I get to have all of this. There were so many times in my life where I doubted if I was in the right place. And there were dark moments, heavy times where I lost faith in absolutely everything. My best friend died and then my grandmother and then my dog and then my mom tried to commit suicide. All in one year. I remember a moment when I was walking the dogs and felt this overwhelming longing to step out into the ocean and never come back. I was on...

Island Yoga Love in General, Love, Retreats, Workshops, Yoga

Island Yoga❤ This place has my whole heart. Scroll down for a tour of the whole studio! Creating Island Yoga in Aruba was a dream of mine for so many years and a part of me still can't believe it's true! As with everything, it's a work in process and i feel like for every week that passes we add another sprinkle of magic into the space. We have officially been open for just over eight months and are getting ready to host our first Island Yoga Teacher Training in just a few weeks! Now that we're...

A Prayer For My Daughter in General, Love, Travel, Yoga

A prayer for my daughter May she know love. May she be loved. May she never look in the mirror and think “I should lose five pounds”. Never ever. May she never feel the urge to hold her stomach in while on the beach in a bikini. May she never diet, or count calories, or obsess over her body. May she never spend even a second staring at herself in the mirror on a treadmill thinking about her weight. May she turn her face to the sun and her attention to the moment, fully soaking...

In These Retreats, We Go Where Love Is in General, Love, Retreats, Yoga

People sometimes ask what we do during these retreats... I can't fully explain it. Yes we do yoga and eat well and we hike and sail and play but in the Luna shala, magic happens. Real magic. We move and sweat like fucking crazy and it opens us so we can explore places within that we haven't looked at in a long, long time. We go where love is. And where there is fear, we inquire. We scratch at wounds that haven't fully healed to see what's underneath. We share. We journal. We dive in....

I Have No Intention in Moving Backwards in General, Love, Pregnancy, Yoga

If I have to read one more comment saying how "brave" I am for showing off my post-partum body I'm going to SCREAM. I understand that there is no bad intention behind saying that I'm "courageous" for sharing photos and videos of me as I am, three months after having given birth, but what that actually means is that you look at my body and think that I am anything else but perfect and beautiful. Like I should be hiding a little bit, now that I weigh 15 pounds more than normal (I gained 40...